These are my random thoughts....if they sound dark at times, it's because I am being honest...if they are lame at times...it's because I am being honest.
"Lord, please don't let me fall before I'm lifted." I used to pray with remorse and white knuckles; my heart pounding to the rhythm of my pleas. One night You stood me up and I thought I'd never fall again.....but..."Lord, please don't let me fall before I'm lifted!" My eyes are closed so tight; fingers in my ears, but oh how free my mouth is! Bind it shut! Bind my mouth and open my eyes! Pull the fingers from my ears, but quiet my own voice so I can hear! I cannot live in the gray as before. I am not even welcome there anymore, but I feel shunned by the white. I pretend black isn't even a word, although it has taken up residence in the place between my fingertips and my eyelids. I cry out to You from morning until night- "Lord, please don't let me fall before I'm lifted!"
Amen.
I love your blogs. So NOT lame. Rather, very very relatable. Loved the visual imagery here. One of (because there were many) my favorite lines, "I pretend black isn't even a word although it has taken up residence somewhere between my fingertips and my eyelids." Yes, yes, yes... So been there.
ReplyDelete<3 Love this! Love you! -Desirae
ReplyDeleteLove you too!
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